fuck my life
Saturday, October 24, 2009, ϟ 0 shout(s)
fuck my life. and it's only been a few hours since waking up and i'm in tears.
i was supposed to ask my mum if i can go to tina's house to study for the yearlies with her, but apparently they thought i was gonna bludge. my mum just said "why don't you ask your sister when they're around huh? i don't want you going over to your friend's house to bludge". she then went to my sister's room to tell her about my story.
my sister called me in and didn't believe why i'm not focusing in maths. when it's the truth! the freaken math teacher can't handle a group of students. how can she handle a class then. my sister just told me that i destroyed their trust in me. like they had any in me in the first place. i started crying and they didn't even care at all. they just continued to tell me off for just asking to go to a friends house to study. fuck my life man.
i'm in the living room right now and i'm crying. yes i'm crying. and they don't even give a shit about it. this is the reason why i don't ever try to tell them things. the only reason i do is cause the fucken blackmail me and shit. fucken hell. and it's my friend's one month with another friend of mines too.
urgh. i just found out that my friend jessica blocked me. why? i don't even know. fuck my stupid life. i don't ever see why i still live. no one trusts me anymore.
after that i just started to eat my food and it made me better. at first i was still crying (silently) when eating. but then it stopped =D exdee man. i had to do my freaken maths homework though. i bludged for most of the time but i decided to get into it forcsively. it seemed to work but i had no idea how to do things xD
sigh... tomorrow's another day.
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yesterday is history,
tomorrow is a mystery.
but today is a gift,
that's why it's called the present
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