I think I'm going to go insane with Chloe's constant screams and tantrums when she doesn't get the simplest things. Freak- I'm trying not to snap right now but honestly. By the way my sister's dealing with this- which is nothing- She's not all that ready to be a mother. Yet she has two kids. Frick- I'm- Aish.

Please- someone please just stop this. 

I don't know what I'm doing with myself right now. I really don't. 
I don't know, something feels off about my whole day, I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to be like in the future and it scares me so much. And you know what? What ever's coming is happening because I deserve it. 

I'm going to stop with the excuses to make myself feel better and I'm going to try and work harder for myself and no one else. Hmm, that sounds like a good idea. If another person were to ask me about my future, I'm just going to stay quiet. 

One thing though, I can't stop thinking about this one thing. And it's been like this for days and I don't think it's going to get any better. I seriously think I'm delusional beyond repair. It's my alternate world, all these illusions, and I don't feel like leaving them because then I'd face the harsh reality of it all. I don't think I'm making much sense right now but there's not much I can do right? 

Well that's it for now, 
Over and out. 

Oh and I don't know what to do about the cursor on my page because of the new theme thing. I mean, I managed to replace it with a mustache but whenever the cursor hovers over any links it immediately reverts back to the original one that says "Forbidden Love" so... You see my problem? Hurps.

Well that's all I wanted to say. Heheh

Over and Out

So I woke up pretty early today, which is pretty sad considering I slept at around 3-4? Somewhere between that time frame, annnnywho~ I did what I always did, I rolled around in bed too lazy to even get out knowing that if I did I would have been given tasks I would not have liked. I don't know I ended up watching the shows on my laptop, reading chatlogs from previous days and what not. Heh, I think I ended up getting out of bed officially at around 1:49pm? I don't know.

But hey hey! Guess what, my mum made Bo La Lot again for me. Ohohoho, but this time I helped wrap the meet in the leaves. I was gonna watch Special A while I wrapped them but I changed my mind and ended up watching Bleach instead. o u o Which reminds me, I still need to get updated with them along with Fairy Tail. Sobs. All my episodes of Fairy Tail... I should have burnt all of the- Actually no, I still have all the- wait no the newer eps are in my hard drive while the ones I have on my computer are the older ones. WELL GREAT. I'm going to have to talk to my friend to lend me his harddrive again. 

Anyways, I'm still watching Bleach right now and damn, I wonder what's happening right now in the manga. My friend keeps me updated but she doesn't explain things well enough for my liking. No offence Jika Ceha. I really worry for her though, she's hardly keeping up with her studies and just hearing about her English half yearly exam results have me really worried. It doesn't help considering the fact that her parents are making her babysit her newborn baby brother. I mean come on, you want your daughter to do well in school yet you have her taking care of the baby day and night? You guys are the parents, it may get hard but that's the responsibilities you gave yourself when you decided to have the baby in the first place.

Ok I got distracted, my sister and her family came over and yeeeah. Paul, I still don't like you all that much, just saying. It's like you don't even want to be here. Meh, I'm gonna try and avoid getting too frustrated with this guy like I usually am. B( Am I blabbering too much again? I think so, I'll just- Oh I don't know. Hey I should take a picture of my babies before I eat it. Now when  I say babies, I mean the Bo La lot.

Over and Out

Ta daaaaaaaa~ I'm somewhat proud of myself, hehe.
Anyways I'm going to get off before a certain someone continues to nag at me. It is getting pretty late after all.

Over and out



My gosh it's been ages since I've been on this thing, I didn't even think I'd still be logged in cause to be quite honest, I forgot my password for this and login and what nots. But dang, the last time I was on this, my sister was still pregnant with her first child. Now Chloe's turning three this year.

Guys, I'm getting too old for my liking and it's only just beginning. You know what the ironic thing is? After I complained about not knowing how to use Tumblr, I ended up migrating to it. Yes I did and I ammuh so sorry. You have my kind yet guilty regards. u_u 

Should I start posting on this thing again? I don't know, maybe, beats ranting on my OneNote. The good thing about it though is I can passwordlock it so no one will ever see it unless they work the password out. But pff- Like that helps, the password is so simple to type. 

But let me just say something, I just spent one hour or so reading through all these past posts I made, and gosh I want to just slap myself in the face. I feel like scolding myself for being so- narrow minded about the things I went through back then and BOY did I swear a lot back then. By the way PastMe: You piss me off, USE. CAPITALS. It doesn't cost you much ok? B(

Anyways, I think I'm going to try and post on this thing again. It my actually help me in terms of releasing steam like it was supposed to years ago. But the question is- how do I change the blog template again? ;;

Over and out.

I know, I know. I'm not blogging enough, but who's gonna read this anyway? Everyone pretty much ditched Blogspot for Tumblr.
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I JUST WORKED OUT HOW TO USE THIS FREAKEN SITE! D:

Well today wasn't one of the sun-shiney days. I just found out that one of my 'friends' talked shit about me. Apperantly she thought i was stupid, seriously, and she's not the sharpest crayon in the pack EITHER.
farrr out. Talk about a two faced bitch face ==

so this was how it went out;
Rachel: I don't see how Patricia came 7th in maths
Kim: Patricia is smart, she's not dumb you know
Rachel: then why isn't she moving up to m3?
Amanda: She came from m3 you know
Rachel: then why'd she move down from?
Kim: she has her reasons
Rachel:... -looks away-
Kim: -glares at her with venom-

well lets just say. THANK YOU AMANDA, KIM. you are the best
people I absolutly love, thanks for trying to cheer me ;
Amanda
Kim
Ashley
Annie
Tommy
new past